Emotional Hieroglyphs - OX part II

In this blogpost I wrote about the O. Now I will tell you about the X.

For me this X stands for my emotional crossroad. That uncomfortable place of standing at a choice not knowing which way to go yet, but standing there anyway. It’s a moment of tension, transition & waiting. X is a placeholder for everything I don’t know about myself yet. It’s undefined, unfinished, but still here. It is my own reminding kiss that says: I’m here. I exist. I don’t have to spell it all out perfectly, but deserve this space.

So, I’ll keep marking the page with X’s. Not as mistakes, but as a reminder that I’m allowed to stand at the crossroads for a while. Maybe buy a tent and start camping there even, just to give myself time to be. Breathing, giving it space and patiently waiting for answers.

In life we have so much to think and worry about and we are always in a hurry to fix everything ASAP. Why are we not allowing ourselves to just sit down & stare outside the window for a (big) while?

Love and stay messy,

Bianca